I sit here the night before I am due to check my son in for a cardiac procedure and I am finally allowing myself to come to terms with having a child that needs that extra bit of special care. It is so hard. Lets face it it's hard to have your first baby get that first sniffle , then one hardens to that , then they get some weird wonderful rash , and we get through that but when it starts becoming hospital admissions and regular doctor/specialist visits , it almost feels surreal . "we're both so healthy , these things happen to other people, how did this happen?"
But somehow we have this ability to roll with whatever comes our way , and we start looking at the up side , as one must do ....at least he doesn't need open heart surgery , it is only a small procedure ...actually , we are so lucky!!
Think of me tomorrow morning , when we wheel our brave son into the theatre ....needing all the good vibes - but I know it is all going to be fine . I will blog the outcome x
